Mountains, The Social Internet, and Characters Who Are Not Monkeys

I wanted to start this entry with I have just come back from a weekend in the mountains, but we returned from the mountain on Sunday and the fact that it’s now Tuesday renders the opening inaccurate. Instead, today’s the day when my brain returned from the mountains, kicking back into gear after three days away to celebrate my beloved’s birthday.

It was pretty, up in the mountains. We woke to a sea of mist every morning, broken by occasional islands where peaks rose through the white. There were cows, and whip-poor-will, and access to a store selling a vast array of flavoured liquors and whiskeys. I drank far more than is usual for me, slept far less, and didn’t think about writing for several days in a row.

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Now my beloved is in the next room, watching Kobo and the Two Strings on my recommendation. She is increasingly unimpressed by their insistence on calling one character Monkey when they are patently not a monkey, and the plot is not engrossing her. Which is, admittedly, something I’d been irritated with myself back when I watched it, but I have blocked that out and remembered the gorgeous design work that went into the villains of the piece.

Pizza has been ordered for lunch, and I’m set up in our bedroom working on a short story titled The Black Glove Widow of Helios Ridge that will probably not end up being a story. The current draft just crossed 6,000 words, and I’m hitting the kind of transition point where the story changes gears. The logic of narrative structure tells me I’m looking at something 24,000 words long, or I’m cutting a whole bunch of stuff somewhere along the way.

I’ve found myself going back and looking at blog entries for various writers circa 2002 or so, examining the kinds of engagement that were encouraged back in the early days of the social internet. It’s much like going back and looking at the early films of the Lumière brothers after the invention of the film camera–people feeling out how the form will be used, replicating more familiar models until innovation emerges. You start with a train arriving at a station or people leaving a factory, an in-motion version of a static photograph, and soon someone figures out that you can pan the camera sideways or cut from one shot to the next. Eventually you get special effects and the modern blockbuster.

We have evolved so far away from those modern weblogs, from a writers point of view, but I’m still entranced by those daily glimpses into a working writers life. The list of things done, concerns entertained, words counted. The slow progression where you can see how a book you love developed, some seventeen years after the book was initially drafted.

And now I have to go mark assignments, which is a very 2002 thing for me to be mentioning on my blog, and no more fun than it was all those years ago.

Really Simple Syndication

I broke out my RSS reader last night while sitting on the couch with my partner. I’ve been using Newsblur for tracking blogs ever since Google Reader shut down, and part of me still holds a grudge against Google for deciding that RSS was an archaic bit of technology they no longer wanted to support. I value my RSS reader to the tune of a yearly subscription, even during the lean years where it felt like an extravagance.

My partner had never encountered an RSS reader before. The difference in our age is a handful of years, but within those years was the advent of social blogging platforms such as Livejournal and the eventual rise of social media. Things powered by RSS without anywhere near the level of control if you value the ability to curate and sort the flows of information into meaningful categories.

Occasionally I read about the death of the blog. It’s all about social media these days, or establishing an email newsletter and communicating directly. Yet when I leave my RSS reader untouched for a week, I come back to over 1,000 entries that have built up in my absence.

Blogs are still out there, generating content. They may place more importance on getting shared on Facebook or Twitter these days, but you can still tap their feed directly and get everything published sent your way. It’s not as obvious as it used to be, back in the days when the RSS symbol could be found on every website, but on the rare occasions that my reader can’t find a feed on its own I can usually track one down by typing the web address and adding /feed to the end.

So I sit here, feeling like a throwback, processing a thousand blog entries worth of information in the space of an hour. Tagging the ones I need to come back to because they hold an interesting idea, letting the others disappear into the endless stream of the feed.

Things I Was Thinking About at 3:30 AM This Morning

It’s 3:30 AM and the insomnia has set in, creeping in behind a mild anxiety moment that hit about six hours ago.

It’s 3:30 AM and the night sky is a dark, luscious shade of indigo that sits above the darker silhouettes of trees and houses and hills. It’s 3:30 AM and I wish the camera on my phone wasn’t broken, so I could distract myself with the attempt to photograph the darkness.

It’s 3:30 AM and everyone on social media is recommending Safia Samatar’s essay about Why You Left Social Media, but it’s not 3:30 AM when you read this and if you were asleep then it’s possible you missed it, and so I’m going to link it here because it is quite extraordinary and maybe you missed it while you slumbered.

It’s 3:30 AM and the guinea pigs are rummaging through their hay, unbothered by my presence on the couch with a clicking laptop.

It’s 3:30 AM and the apartment is cool and pleasant, courtesy of the the air conditioners stripping the muggy heat out of the humid air.

It’s 3:30 AM and I’ve been reading James Patterson books. It’s 3:30 AM and I need to urinate, but the bathroom is next to the bedroom where my partner sleeps, and I do not want to wake here unless I have no other choice, and I do not need to pee so bad. Not yet. I’m happy for her to keep slumbering.

It’s 3:30 AM and the world is magic, but magic isn’t always pleasant and it isn’t always useful.

It’s 3:30 AM and i scare myself with the thought that some lies in wait, hunkered down behind my couch, armed and seeking to do me ill. I fret about the fragility of the barricades separating me from the outside world. i scare myself with the thought of what may be lurking on the tile floor, waiting for my bare feet to come past, and so I rest my heels on the coffee table.

I should turn a light on, but that’s not going to happen.

It’s 3:30 AM and I’m appreciating the irony, given that I tweeted a link to an article about what to do when you cannot sleep about nine hours ago. Maybe people will find it useful? It hasn’t helped me much, even though I came back and read the advice.

It’s 3:30 AM and I’m weirdly content in my insomnia, taking pleasure in being awake when there is no-one else around. Enjoying the quiet and the world that is made small by darkness, contracting down to the light of a laptop screen and an overly busy mind.

It’s not 3:30 AM anymore. It’s 3:49 AM and counting.

It’s 3:30 AM and I shouldn’t be trusted with a keyboard, for the typos come thicker and my editing is weaker. I will mistype simple words and fail to correct them.

It’s 3:30 AM and I’m muttering Pink Floyd lyrics, stuck on the phrase is there anybody out there. 

It’s 3:51 now. 3:52. 3:58. 3:59. Sleep is coming no closer.